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Friday, 14 March 2008

  • Wow.

        Haha well, once again Xanga, I've unfortunately forgotten about you for the time being. I truly apologize, you've always been good to me.

    Life, you ask? Well... yet again, it is everchanging, and I wouldn't quite know where to begin to describe what's happened with it since the last time I wrote.  Since September 9th, 2007 ... I've dated someone for 5 1/2 months and had them live with me. That relationship is over though, since January. Micheal and I don't live together anymore and we haven't spoken in a few months, since October to be exact. I live with my FATHER, in Jackson, with Kitty. WHAT?! Yeah, talk about surprising.  It's quite a long story how that happened, but I'll save that one for some other random e-blog site.

    Nowadays you can find me here, at the log house, spending time with my Dad and his fiancee, getting drunk with them and spending an extraordinary amount of time online.  I've been searching for a job, and gotten a couple interviews, but still haven't GOTTEN a job yet. I've been here for a month.  Blah!  But, so far, I like it here. It really is a change of pace, and I think it's the best thing I could've asked for. Before moving here, my world was crashing down, and FAST. Things just kept happening over and over and over and more and more and more, and honestly I thought that I was gonna go insane. I WAS going insane, so thank god I was able to come here ;)  I've visited Monroe twice since living here, and it just makes the time spent there so much better haha I miss my friends more than anything in the world, BUT... this is what I need right now.

Sunday, 09 September 2007

  • I always forget about this thing. I love Xanga... I love it because no one knows I have it.  I love being able to truly, honestly, completely say how I feel. 


    Sooo much shit has happened.  I moved out. Micheal and I live together now.  I got a job. Lost a job.  Went to jail for 12 hours. Was in trouble with the court, but that's all settled now and it's all dismissed.   I haven't talked to my mother in 3 weeks because she knows that I know that she owns a business. It's all confusing. Unnecessary drama to anyone who chooses to read this.  :) I'm happy. Content.  In love with life.




    Met a boy. Lost a boy. Met another boy. Lost him too. Met another one. Ehh. Lost him.  haha. Being 20 is a fucking merry-go-round. I just choose to be merry.


    Drugs. No drugs. Drugs. No drugs. NO DRUGS.  Drugs, I've decided, are for those who haven't really experienced life yet.  Most think that experiencing life includes dabbling into narcotics. No. Not at all.  Drugs are for those that need excitement elsewhere. I've learned how to find it without being fucked up all the time.



    All in all, I love life as of right now, and I love the people who are in it.  I love me, I love my friends, I love everyone who happens to play a role in my life :) I couldn't be happier, and I know things are just gonna keep on looking up from here on out.

Friday, 13 April 2007

  • Rarrr?

    Blah, I keep forgetting about this damned thing.  Partially because I'm busy, and partially because I really have nothing to write about. I mean, I do... I have tons of things to write about really, but why waste the time writing all about it when I could be out creating even more memories? I don't know.


    Brittany's about to move out [thank god] .. Micheal [my gay best friend] and I are getting a place together in a couple months .. Guitar Hero .. Guitar Hero .. drunk, drunk ... satisfied smiles :)




    I don't know what else to say really.

Saturday, 23 December 2006

  • completely .. complete

    Let's discuss the last month of my life, because some pretty extreme things have happened .. things that I thought weren't gonna happen for quite awhile longer.

     

     

    Most unimportantly -- I got an MIP haha... Iwas at Keely and Hollee's apartment, and I had1 drink andddd the cops showed up and breathilized everyone sooo I have to pay 100 bucks and take 2 AA classes haha... which will be funny, because I intend on making the best out of this situation.

     

     

    MOST importantly, I lost my virginity.  YES, wow. Never thought it would happen so quickly [quite contradicting, actually, because I'm 19 years old and usually people lose their virginity much earlier than that] .. but I just never thought it would happen like it did.  BUT... the good news is, I completely don't regret it whatsoever.  Not a bit.  And I don't think I ever will.  I'm glad it happened.. it needed to.  I really like the man I lost it to, and we plan on hanging out a lot more.  I think a very good thing could come out of this.  It's just crazy, because before just a few days ago, everyone knew me as the virgin.  It's just... weird, and no one else really understands it.  BUTTT, it had to happen sometime, and I'm actually pretty glad it happened when it did.  I'm glad I waited an extra few years hahah.  It made it all worth it.

     

    Brittany & I still live together.  Sometimes it's annoying but she just got a second job so I'll get even more personal time.  I'm being a bit selfish and over-dramatic about the whole situation, but... I don't think we're meant to be roommates for much longer.  The hardest part about coming to terms with this will be to actually inform her of this.

     

     

    And that might take months for me to say. 

     

     

    Christmasssss... can't wait. Good food. Good gifts. Good spirits. Good liquor. hahah. THAT'S WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT.

     

     

     

    --Mandy

Thursday, 30 November 2006

  • I'm so glad  I can get my true feelings out here, even if no one reads this.  That's really the point though.. No one in my real life will ever read this.... and that's the only thing I could ever ask for at this point.

     

    I'm listening to the Requiem for a Dream Main Theme and crying and just thinking about things. It's amazing how happy of a person I am.. yet... damn, I'm just so unhappy.  This song makes me contemplate things I've never even imagined before.

     

    "Main Theme" by Requiem For a Dream... Download it.  I suggest it.  It'll take your mind to a completely different place if you let it.  Just close your eyes the second the song comes on and just let your mind flow the entire time it's playing.  I promise by the end of the song you'll have tears in your eyes.

    But you honestly have to CLOSE your eyes and really just put things into perspective.  I just cried my eyes out listening to this song.  It doesn't make me a baby.. it doesn't categorize me as emo... it's just... great.  It's great to do this.  I  haven't done this in so long.

    I just cried for everyone I love, loved, will ever love, care about, cared about, will ever care about.. etc. etc.

     

     

     

    It's the best/worst feeling in the world and I don't know how exactly to feel about it.  All I know is everyone should hear this song and I know that it will affect you in some way or another, whether it be conscious or subconscious.

     

     

    --Mandy

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